I’ve been out of a job since August 1st. I admit that I have been spending more money than necessary and have not been frugal while I am searching for work. My computer started dying so I went out and bought a MacBook Pro. It’s fast, it’s efficient, it remembers all my passwords, and I am getting more done with it than I had with my old, slow computer. I have no regrets other than the hefty price.
Sir has been gathering feelings about me over the past few weeks. Firstly, we haven’t had much time to see each other because of devastation that is going on in our area. Secondly, he was under the weather last week and I was under the weather this week. I know he was upset with me and how I am handling unemployment. We chatted this afternoon and he was adamant about coming to pick me up so we could talk. Unfortunately me and Kid had eye appointments to get our prescriptions updated. Yes, another money-spending venture, but a needed one. Our glasses were so out of date, I could barely see. It will be several hundred dollars to get our new glasses, but we are ordering online so they will be cheaper. I am doing my best to get into a frugal state of mind, it’s just so hard when I’m used to making good money so Kid would never want for anything. These new glasses will be the last major purchase I make until after I have re-padded my bank accounts. That’s a promise.
Sir was concerned about me. My phone died without me knowing on Monday and I inadvertently missed two phone interviews. I did make it to my face to face computer test/interview on Tuesday even though I was incredibly sick. I passed the test, I just don’t know how the interview went. He read me a bunch of canned questions that were abstract and hard to answer – I did what I could and responded using my past experiences to try to talk myself up. That interviewer who is the number 2 guy in the office will be going on vacation starting today, so hopefully I will hear from my first interviewer to come in and meet the owner. I’d love to get this job, it’s in IT so I see it as a great learning opportunity. They had a bunch of other candidates, so who knows. I am applying to everything that comes my way via referrals, the agency I’m signed up with, and three or four websites. There have been no less than 10 applications input per day. The calls just aren’t forthcoming. I am way out of most employers’ price range so I have to wait for the larger corporations to need someone where I fit the bill.
I made the reservation at Sir’s and my “home” and let him know I was there and ready for him this evening. I cancelled plans with my girlfriend to be with him, because he said if I wasn’t there I needn’t contact him again. I could tell Sir was in a very serious mood and I knew I was the reason for the mood. He’s not happy how I am spending my time with no job. He doesn’t realize how much time I spend on the computer every day looking, researching, applying, and just plan networking to find something, anything!
When Sir arrived he hugged me first. That was nice considering I knew I was in trouble. He led me by the ponytail back into the suite. When he had me where he wanted me he started going through our accoutrements to select exactly what he needed to get his frustration with me out and to drive his point home. Sir never hits me with anger, but sometimes I push the envelope and he needs to put me back in my place. It was an emotional session. Yes, many of the emotions were from being struck, but many more of the emotions were because I disappointed Sir. I hate when I disappoint him, but I can be sure he will put me back in my place as soon as possible. He succeeded tonight. I am back on track to keep my days frugal, curb what Kid spends on the credit card, double down on the job hunting, and driving for Uber as often as possible to cover the amount of money I need to pay my bills and Kid’s school costs.
In the past year that Sir and I have been in contact, he has helped me immensely. I haven’t felt so cared for since before my late husband got sick. I might lean on Sir too much, and I’d like to rectify that once I am in a new job and back on track. I’d like to be a fun part of his life and not a burden or source of stress. He’s amazing and I’d like our sessions to be just that, amazing with no drama.
So that’s where I’ve been these past few months. I’m thankful Sir has stuck around for me. He’s such a genuine person and after seeing what’s out there for subs, I really lucked out finding Sir the first night I searched for someone.
Ta ta for now!